Phantasm

The test result finally comes out. Well, at least it's better than what I expected except for one or two subjects that are quite disappointing. My efforts are gone to waste and feeling very down now. My Chinese really pulls my result down even though the teacher is very generous with the marks. Convergence is happening soon. 9, 10, 11 or 12 worlds will meet together at a single point for the final showdown. Will we survive? Lately, anger seems to take over me. Everything that at my sight will just piss me off. I have the difficulty to maintain my cool especially when some people start to fool around steal each other' pencil case boast about how they do not want to accept the post but the teacher insist them to do so (such a liar) lie about they only stay in the committee just to accompany their lonely committee friends (can't they think of some more realistic reasons) mops over something ridiculous making silly jokes that reflects their extreme low IQ sing with all ...

. .. feel disappointed because someone deliberately forgets to fulfill my wish. The reason given: for the greater good. ... thank God for allowing me to see the truth behind the mask. Just like Professor Dumbledore once said, "Truth is a beautiful yet terrible thing". The truth entwines with so much lies and weaknesses. Should I sever the bonds? ... have the shock of my life. The reality I believe is just a mere illusion. Still can't believe that sad story happens to the closed ones. May they are blessed. ... got a feeling that something bad is going to happen. Secrets will be unveiled soon.

Looking at the pictures, I realized how small I am among the the other classmates. Perhaps that's why I was called a useless little brat who knows nothing in any organization. A frog under a coconut shell. Everybody seems to be rushing to be adult. Some "try" to look cool and always rehearse their gaze to attract other (or same) sexes in front of the mirror until the mirror cracks. I pity the mirror for the need to withstand the looks. I use the word "try" because they do not cool at all. Stupid maybe.) A few takes on the path of the so-called emo road. They easily get upset when they encounter some trivial matter that doesn't affect them at all give unnecessary thoughts. Such people are so pathetic to be overwhelmed by emotions. And then, there are some who want to be on the trend by falling in love and have their hearts shattered into pieces. How can these weakling meddle with the most powerful force in this world? O f course, these was always a group that...

Last week, there was a CNY visit to orphanage. It was expected to be small, dingy and dark with pressing atmosphere. We all feel sorry for the orphans. But, all the sorry feeling vanishes when we saw a few teenage girls playing with their own laptops. Wow, they are richer than many of us. And then, there were some kids in the primary school age just keep brandishing their hand phones and use them wherever they went. I can't help to say that they are more fortunate than us in the sense of material. The game session was a complete fiasco. A girl with fierce face voiced loudly that she will not play the game that she has played before (aka music chair) forcing us to make impromptu plan by changing the game. The teacher works hard to conceal her disapprove of the committee mainly because she is eying her children is running all over the place. The committee has to put much effort to persuade the troubled girl to play. And then , the same girl spoke again when we decide to give presents...