Phantasm

New feeling: Awkward First, let's picture a scenario. You are at a gathering. A friend of yours brought along a former friend of yours who have committed the deliberate act of ignoring you and some other guests after leaving primary school. Will you immediately try to get on his or her good side to rekindle the relationship or simply play the You-no-call-me-I-no-call-you game? This is the latest emotion added to my list : awkward. New exposure: Seinen manga Since I'm now officially 18, I am now eligible to read seinen manga which targets those from18 to 40 years old. Note that seinen is not hentai. I now understand why the underage are not supposed to approach this genre. This genre specially explores the worst side of humanity------- killing for fun, free sex, twisted logic, beastly desire and gross fantasy. I just read the summary and review of Beserk. Totally nauseating. It begins with an ominous note. The protagonist was born from a woman hanged at the Hanging Tree and sup...

The day has come. My pulse is abnormal. I am nothing but fidgeting all over the place. Only when my mum came to fetch me then I desisted. Since mine was scheduled to be eleven something, so I am ushered to go to Pustaka Negeri early. TWO HOURS EARLY. I am really surprised to see only a few people there. Thank God Allan is there. At least there is a spot of familiarity in the midst of unknown. And then, the worst part came. Due to the absence of several applicants, my name was pushed forward at the spot. That just means that my interview was TWO HOURS EARLY. Everything just rushed to my head and I can't think anymore. I just strolled along like broken puppet. We are placed at a room with the other group which has interview at the same time. Someone gave us a briefing and ask us to keep everything secret as it will elevate others and endanger yourself. He even joked that this is the time to be selfish. Sice I has zero chance to get it anyway, I might as well spill it all out. Course:...

Suddenly, I so hooked on hip-hop music. The artist really is a wizard to rekindle my interest in this genre. Who determines what is right and what is wrong? God? Government? Media? Religion? This clique question has secured its significant place in many series, especially the cop+criminal+psycho drama, sci-fi movie and radical movement plot. The enquirer of this question is often not accepted in the rigid society and viewed as twisted person. ( Now, I am worried about the psychology test. I secretly hope that I am not dragged off to the psycho hospital in the middle of interview.) People do the right thing for the wrong reason and the wrong thing for the right reason. Should we judge people based on their intentions or actions? A character who formerly is a crook and now lose memory turning into a saint-like goody-goody makes a recurring appearance in many twists existing in fiction. Will his current good deeds make up for his past crimes or be punished regardless of his contribution?...

This is a very rush post as I need to catch up with some series. Anyway, I was greeted by surprise after surprise this week. Bad and good surprise. This is the week when I was most touched by a song lyrics. Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy (Maybe I'm crazy) Maybe I'm the only one (Maybe I'm the only one) Maybe I'm just out of touch Maybe I've just had enough Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind I've never been one to walk alone I've always been scared to try So why does it feel so wrong To reach for something more To wanna live a better life What am I waiting for? 'Cause nothing stays the same Maybe it's time to change Maybe it's hopeless (Maybe it's hopeless) Maybe I should just give up (Maybe I should just give up) What if I can't trust myself? What if I just need some help? Maybe it's time to change And leave it all behind ...